I took the night off. Yet I am still somewhat exhausted

We started off the day 5 minutes late since Jennifer slept through her alarm or something. I remember hearing her alarm go off the whole time she was in the shower. It felt horrible
This morning she came into my room saying "Andria it's later than usual" and my instant response to jump out of bed since it sounded urgent. But 5 minutes is actually nothing though??

Our teacher didn't come for half of the day. Our civil teacher came to substitute and thank God that we didn't have a lot of classes in the classroom

We voted for honor roll. This year's wasn't that impressive though.

My friends had problems getting in groups. Again. I understand their means but I really don't think it's necessary to fight so much over a class we only have once a week
But not everyone is me so having different opinions is natural and we should all just face that.

I got 91 on civil!! What!!! That's number 11 out of all 44 of us
I haven't gotten a 90 ever since 7th grade civil

Someone got a fever. Hopefully it's not the flu

Almost died from the sluggish feeling during English class.

I wish we could sleep after Chinese Literature tests... My eyes couldn't stay open

Followed Jennifer to the experiment room to meet up with some of her friends. The teachers gave them pizza and chicken as thanks for helping out the sixth grade interviews
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Normally I'd type much more but I;m tired today. Tomorrow I'm going to try to fix my blog's text and edit my playlist

Goodnight!!

Music class was a mess. Again. I really dislike the teacher now and watching the boys messing around with her has been pretty satisfying
It's fun besides the fact that she keeps yelling into the microphone. Why are all the music teachers at school so annoying
I suddenly miss my piano teacher and her classes and her dog...

We took the essay-writing section of our exams
I think I wrote it fine but I'm kinda worried that my context isn't too fitting for the title

Had basketball hoop target practice today if that's what it's called(I literally just made that phrase up) I can't believe I can actually aim

Counseling can actually be fun. Her classes have been so boring recently

My Physics/Chemistry is over for sure r.i.p. my exams

I still can't understand if I'm doing my Chinese Literature okay. Am I average or what

Dinner was great. We ordered Milkshop and had to go to the bathroom like crazy

I was watching my friends play tag and such in the courtyard again. Watching everyone and just staring off into space made me really relaxed. I wish I could sit under the sun and rest forever

Math was really easy today but the math teacher is very disappointed in our recent test results. oops
Jennifer came picking me up after 1. waking up late 2. playing Zelda 3. eating McDonalds 4. playing acnl 5. heading off to eat 原燒 for dinner 6. going to the dentist to fill her cavities(the true reason why she took the day off) and 8. getting a drink.
I'm glad I went to school today though. Heading home and writing an entry after doing everything in an organized matter feels somewhat reassuring to me

Today was another great day
Nothing seems as scary as I used to think
Tomorrow's going to be a day filled with tests(Civil, History, and Chinese Literature)
Perhaps I'll do fine on them. Welp, just hope for the best I guess

I need to go back and publish one of my drafts. Gonna try to find out how to make custom wallpapers here

Goodnight!!

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I took the day off today. So here's the view from my work desk.

After each absence, I feel even more anxious to go to school. Recently I've been feeling more excited than nervous, but the fear is still there.
People ask me what I'm afraid of.
I'm not sure either. It's hard to state something objective, but I've always felt nervous before heading out somewhere that wasn't with my family. It's just hard for me to feel very comfortable around people other than my family. I'm sure there'll be a day where I meet someone I can be my comfortable self around.
My friends are great people though! It doesn't make them any less important! I just prefer being at home far more.

I watched a movie earlier so I can't think straight. I'm going to hang around my bed until I feel sleepy and less anxious about tomorrow. Goodnight world

Something tonight is making me nostalgic and gloomy
I'd like to be alone but that is a ticket to make my mood go straight down
Clicking through old songs
older older and older
I'd like to stop thinking so much about everything.
Tomorrow's a long day
another long, long day,
so let's enjoy it to the fullest without regrets!
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Today started with a terrible period cramp. I don't really remember having any painful cramps from before, so I automatically thought that I was just the type to not get cramps but I was wrong. But it still wasn't that bad, I didn't feel like screaming or anything just kinda uncomfortable

Having math first period is exhausting I kept nodding off

I actually really like our Chinese Literature teacher. He makes a lot of weird things funny

Our group in DL is so successful it scares me

Computer class was nice everyone said that my blog was too much
I will continue to take photos secretly and keep uploading them!! Will not disappoint

r.i.p. my math test
The teacher 抽 three people to go to parent's day for volunteering, although that's literally the opposite of "volunteering"
I was not picked but I switched with someone since they didn't wanna go, my friend was going, and I kinda wanted to hang around at school again. Helping around isn't that hard and there actually isn't much to do, sooo
sorry not sorry to the person that didn't get to switch haha

was going to sleep but ended up writing chinese hw

專題is so boring now. I miss 蕭友為. those were the freest classes ever

Math. again. teacher threatened us with parent's day

Last period was supposed to be English but was swapped with a period of counseling from before. We played this game where we had to pass down a number only using signals on our face
everyone cheated so it didn't really matter

I forgot my health card at school so I didn't get to get a checkup on my eyes. I wrote it on my hand now so I won't forget tomorrow
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Mommy sounds really stressed about moving and dealing with Grandfather, and Daddy's thoughts on handling things is different from Mommy's so there has been a lot of discussing recently. I can tell that neither side is angry, but I'm sure everyone is tired and stressed. It's at times like these that I don't want to deal with any one of them. I'm not good at comforting, and I'm really tired of laughing and talking with Jennifer since she's pumped up all the time and I can't really keep up with her.
Of course I want to support my family. I really do. But to do that I'd have to let go of my own worries and face them with a smile and I've run out of energy today.
Please don't talk to me when my batteries are cut short, I don't have extra energy to deal with other things.
Mommy, don't worry that I don't love you anymore; that'll never ever happen ever as long as I am alive.

Sorry for being emotional it's not like anyone will read this lol Jennifer has no interest and my parents don't have time(at least recently), and my classmates won't stop to read something that's none of heir business. If you're reading this perhaps you are dear to me, or you just have too much time on your hands. decide which one you are yourself
Goodnight world. One day I will look back to this post in a good mood and marvel at my boldness that's placed blatantly in public. Night is a wonderful yet terrifying thing

Tomorrow will be a better day.

I just dropped Cutie into the trash can by accident. Again. I am letting all of my dollies sit in my lap today as an apology
Something at school made my really happy again. I was right when I said that everything was going uphill now!! Except for the fact that I pretty much busted my ankle and that my allergies have been acting up so much that my skin has been on fire and that my eyes are so dry I can't see anything at all
....
Other than that everything is fine!! I think!!!
As I type, my nose is getting stuffier and stuffier. I think it's because I sniffed cutie and whiffed a whole bunch of dust into my nose. I am willing to sacrifice my sense of smell for my dollies though
Speaking of my dollies I need to introduce them some day. They Are Very Important To Me
Off I go onto my "流水帳" like 黃心妍 said
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I arrived at school later than usual today. And by "later than usual" I mean 7:00 exactly once the bell finished ringing and not ten minutes before that. I'm not sure why though. Maybe our lunch or breakfast was harder to make than usual???

I swear LTE is so much better than the old one we had(I just spent 10 seconds staring at the wall trying to think of the name of it but I could only think of the jingles for LTE so I gave up on it since it's probably not important enough for me to remember WAIT IT'S 空中英語 RIGHT?? AM I RIGHT) since the old one had the worst quality when it came to digital cut scenes. Like the Magic Box rabbits. They literally copy-pasted the same rabbit and recolored their eyes to make it seem more different??? idk
I always hated the Magic Box sound since I used to sleep during that time and hearing that equaled to hearing an alarm. That noise was louder than the voices so it felt like a jumpscare
Not that the current one is better. I spend about a fourth of my day singing the main menu song in my head and it's driving me crazy(LET'S TALK IN ENGLISHHHHH TEN MINUTES EVERY DAAAAAAAAY)

Teacher Courtney flew to Taiwan. She took us to 後山 to get a bunch of water samples
Someone had to lay on their stomach to get drain water haha more on that when I get my iPad photos

We're going to make a train that goes in circles in 生科 which I have no idea how to write in English
Kind of like something you'd see on a music box

I swear to god. 童軍 is so boring. I kept falling asleep
I had to keep shaking my head to stay awake I bet it looked ridiculous

Pretty sure I flunked geography today hahhaha

I stole a banana from our school lunch even though I didn't pay for the lunches. Not that it matters or that anyone cares though
I mean it's just one banana. I bet no one would bat an eye even if I took a whole meal one day

I napped. So hard. This afternoon
The type when you forget that you're at school and you get confused when you realize you're sitting and not laying
I still made myself get up to go to the bathroom since I knew that I'd want to sleep between the two history classes afterwards

So yeah. Two history classes. One of them were Chinese Literature but apparently he had "stuff" to do so next week we'll have two straight periods of Chinese Literature. Oh no
Over half of the two history classes, aka for one whole period, the teacher talked about how we were going to 直升 and stuff
I will succeed!! And probably not too hard since I've been doing fine this semester
I think
Hopefully

I got 100 on the exercise sheet from last English class. With a Certain comment from a Certain someone telling me to play this Certain game

Dang we all thought that our math teacher was gonna be busy and wasn't going to come to class but he still came anyways we all thought we were unlucky hahaha

Mommy attempted to take me to the eye clinic but 1. I forgot my health card 2. There was a bunch of people and we had to wait for 2 hours so we left and went to pick up Jennifer
I spent half of the night sleeping on the car. But I am still tired. So I am going to sleep now
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I just poked my eyes trying to rub them after applying medicine now everything is blurry I need my eye drops

現在時間：2:03AM
明天我要和黃心妍陳樂為方子豪出門去密室逃脫，吃吃東西之類的
晚上要和小學同學碰面
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而我睡不著!!
是因為我今天喝茶嗎？我睡太飽？不可能啊，我九點半就起來了，昨天晚上十一點就睡了
我會緊張嗎?? 也不會，已經比以前好多了，以前還會緊張到喘不過氣
噢 到底是想怎樣啊 我都準備好在床上穿睡衣手機充電不要打擾開著聲音關掉了
然後睡不著!!
好吧兩點其實還好啦
曾經有整晚沒睡 那才痛苦
好哩 我要繼續嘗試 各位晚安（ーー；）